Things are a little bit calmer now. There's just soo much to think about. So I guess the easiest thing is just to list them all out and then it won't sound so dramatic.

Ok, first thing, My family over in Australia are ok I've heard. The fire is moving away from them thankfully but they're still not out of danger yet. Not until the rain comes or the weather starts cooling down. January and February are usually the most hottest months of the year. Dec is not too bad but never anything compared to the other two months. Especially in Australia where temperatures soar around 35+ for a few weeks at a time. Therefore causing massive electrical storms often, usually comes directly after a massively hot day. It's quite fascinating to watch actually, one time, We saw a storm where there was no rain at all yet, it was thundering and lightening. There was even a massive cloud, just rolling and rolling in the sky. It was scary to watch because it kinda reminded me of those alien movies where the clouds go dark and lightening coming thru them and then the spaceship appears thru the clouds. Yeah, more like Independence Day. haha. So yeah, My brother and his family are safe for now. Thank goodness.

Second thing, is that my motherinlaw is still in the hospital. The Dr's havent said anything about what they're going to do. She's basically been in hospital since yesterday and they've said nothing so far. It's quite frustrating actually. Especially when they don't have a time limit on their life. But yes I do realise that they have a lot of work to do considering how much of a workload they have to do and the majority of their work is problem solving. My motherinlaw has a massive hole in her lungs, which was caused by the drain they put in last time she went into hospital to drain the fluid from her lungs. And now, she's finding it even harder to breathe and it hurts when she coughs or moves suddenly. I suggested that she put a claim thru with ACC filing for 'Medical Misadventure' becuase it was the surgeon/Dr fault that she now has a hole in her lungs. So at the moment, jsut trying to go and spend time with her. It has been quite nice just to visit, it feels different for some reason. In some ways, I can feel Tangi there looking out for her. Took her a watermelon and some grapes today. The watermelon is $3.00 each and they are ripe and juicy as. Yummm!!!!!

Third thing, Even tho I've had comments that I look good, I still feel quite tired and stressed. I've been trying to get more sleep but it doesnt usually happen for me unless i'm absolutely exhausted. Which is nearly alll the time. And when I finally get into bed, I can't sleep anyway. And then by about 2 or 3am I'm starting ot feel exhausted enough to go to sleep. And of course, makes me feel even more tired thruout the day because my kids wake me up at 8am now. which still isnt enough rest but ah well, better than nothing i reckon.

So I think thats the 'Have heaps of things on my mind" thing. hahaha. See, I told you that when I write it out it just sounds stupid. But having it in your head at one time gets quite overwhelming. I've got a meeting tonight, then another one on Friday for YW. And a meeting tomorrow for personal things. And a wedding on Saturday. And I still have to make sure that i have time for my motherinlaw too as well as get everything else done and sorted. Funny how, if I was to get paid for this, it'll be a good job. hahaha. Oh well.

Anyway, I'm trying to make sure that I'm OK. doing the best I can at the moment. A lot of things to keep me busy and not think about my selfpity.