May Resolutions

Ok. I have made some resolutions that will hopefully help me achieve the bigger goals.

1. Given up eating icecream.
2. Giving up on fizzys tomorrow. haha. Yes I will only drink either juice or water.
3. Give up McDonalds, Burger King and KFC tomorrow onwards.

Hopefully that will help to manage my weight a bit easier. Now I've been told that I'm not fat. But I dont think theyre seeing properly. hahaha. Well, I used to weigh 65kgs and now I sway around 80 - 85kgs. Yeah thats a pretty huge gain. Especially when I dont look that good in my clothes anymore. I used to fit into size 12 -10 and now I'm squeezing into 14-16 sometimes 18. It's not exactly a big morale booster.

I'm really enjoying my calling as YW secretary. I feel really busy with my calling. Getting to know the YW a whole lot better. They're really good and have a lot to say. Just had another change in our vicinity and have a new leader. She's pretty awesome and a bit overwhelmed with the amount of responsibility for her. But she's gonna do an awesome job.

Oh, I am also going to be making more of an effort to get back into making salads again. They're yummy, I really like making marinated chicken salad. It's yummy and tasty so I would really love to keep having that for lunch to help get my body a bit healthier.

Temple week this week. So I've got my babysitters all lined up. So I have to try and get to the gym too.

My next goal to make up a timetable for my everyday things and to stick to it. Well, I have no problems making timetables. It's the sticking to it part that I really have a hard time with. I guess its not enough motivation to keep me wanting to stick to it or not. Oh and laziness too. So, if i want to keep my mind light and happy I need to stick to what I've planned. A little bit of spontanuiety isnt a bad thing but not all the time. hmmm.

well I'm going thru some more of Tangi's things. Went down to Tok on Friday for a couple hours and went through Tangi's room. His family want to get his stuff out of the house because he's not here anymore and there's not much use in keepiing it around. which i agree with, but now i have to sort through everything again. It was a lot easier to go through this stuff becuase I didnt know him then. It was things from his mission. Letters and journals etc. It's the stuff that we left over in Australia that I'm going to have a hard time going thru. Even the cards that we got from his funeral that are addressed to me and the kids, I can't look at them yet. It's too hard to look at them without balling furiously. So, I'm going to wait until I'm ready to do that. I've got all his clothes here that we were able to bring over. I can't bring myself to give them away yet. In some ways, I want our kids to be able to have something of his. So that they can feel a little bit closer to their dad. Tangi had a folder that had all the photos and details of the missionaries who served the same time as Tangi did in the Wellington mission. And I showed Dupri the entire page without pointing out that his dad was on there. And he was looking at it, and then he said ' Daddy' I asked him, where is daddy, and he pointed right at him. 'There is daddy, where mum'. He's a bit young to understand that they were mission photos but he knew exactly who his dad was. and I was really happy that they still remember. I kinda try to drone it into them. I never want them to ever forget their Dad.