Been up nearly all night

Pearl has been sick since about 9.30pm. She's been throwing up every half hour and we have gone thru 4 big blankets, 3 pillows, 3 changes of clothes, all the wet wipes, one shower and 3 sheets. So now, I've made her sleep on the floor because I dont' want to change our bed stuff again. So i put a blanket down and a pillow and then doubled the blanket over. So if she throws up again, out comes the other blanket. After the last spew up, took her inside and gave her a shower and she's all nice and clean. it's now 3.09am and i'm exhausted but dont want to go to sleep just yet in case she wakes me up with her spew sounds and stink spew smell. Geez. i am ticked anyways with the amoount of washing i'm going ot have to do tomorrow. My poor daughter. Ah well, she'll sleep in tomorrow thats for sure. had to put our oil heater on so that we're all warm with only one blanket on since she's dirtied all of the spare ones. lol.

I felt so busy today and yesterday. Dropped dupri at daycare this morning, went straight to the chapel and practised on a couple songs for young womens for about 2 hours. then went home and did more washing. cleaned and scrubbed our room while waiting for the washing to be done. made some lunch and then went picked up dupri from daycare and then put the kids to sleep. i sat down for a little bit and ended up being woken up at 2.30pm by my bro who was there to pick up the kids. so they left and then i did the ironing of most of the clothes that i needed then showered and shot off up to the temple and did 2 sessions. I'm am actually feeling quite exhausted and tired but I'm just trying ot be a good mother to my sick little girl. so thats why 'm still awake. anyways, have felt pretty busy the last few days. last night after the temple, i was feeling a little hungry so went and got some chinese. i had the first bite and i felt sick. but kept eating because i didnt want to waste my money. yeah it was pretty gross. the food was yum but just the greasy taste and feeling was a bit gross. so tonite i got subway instead. and it went down a whole lot better. so i thought that if i can't make it at home then subway will by the alternative to the other fast foods. i have been sticking to not drinking fizzy. i have been drinking juice and water instead. And i havent had any icecream or BK, McDees or KFC. So i think i'm doing pretty well. I havent lost much weight but someone commented to me today that i have lost a little bit of weight. when i told them that i still weigh the same, she asked if i'm getting smaller anyways. and i must admit that yeah i am starting to fit a little better into some of my new skirts and stuff. so thats a good thing. and i'm looking a whole lot better in the more fitting stuff instead of looking so bloated and pregnant. hahaha. and no i'm not pregnant. geez@!!!
Anyways, I think its safe to go to sleep now.. My daughter hasnt woken up yet.
Oh, before i forget. One of my social workers, i have 2 that visit me at a time. and one of them asked me if i'm dating yet. andd then he started naming a few guys who were RM's. My gosh, I just didnt want to know. People think that it's so easy to start dating again. its taking a lot for me to even go to YSA activities. Most of it is that I do feel guilty like i'm cheating on Tangi somehow. Even tho he's not here, I still feel married to him and i really feel that i'm not at that stage yet where i feel comfortable to date again. I'm just doing things in my own time.