I am now officially obsessed with TWILIGHT

Now I know this may sound silly, but yeah I am obsessed with it. I am waiting for my books to arrive and I got a copy of Twilight off my brother. And I can't stop watching it. The last movie I did this to was 'Queen of the Damned'. Yeah that movie was pretty corny and stuff, I just like Vampires. But you know, if I was to see the main actor off Twilight in the street, I probably wouldn't look at him twice. So, It's only the movie that I'm fascinated in. hahaha. Man I really feel like a teenager all over again everytime I watch it. It's more of a star crossed love story than an action film, just about a romance that will never work. Because c'mon, a Vampire and a human, especially when the vampire just wants to kill you and drink your blood.

ok, i'm rambling. hahaha. and now I sound like a nerd. hahaha.

So I just had to put that in.

I spoke to my motherinlaw tonight. Got the kids to ring up and say hi to their grandparents and Dupri wouldnt stop talking about what he was doing. I knew that this was the reason but I didnt want to admit it, but the reason why they want me to go down to Tokoroa so badly is that she pretty much could go anytime now. She's been given the word by the Dr's, that there's nothing they can do for her anymore and she will go any day. I'm pretty torn between going to see them and not. I want to go to show some support and that I do care, which I do. I don't want to go because I don't want to go to another funeral, I don't want to see death again. I just can't help but wonder what Tangi's dad is feeling. He has just lost his only son, and is about to lose his wife too. They're in Auckland at the moment hanging out with their family, which is kool for them. And arent sure when they'll make the trip back to Tokoroa. I'm assuming that she'll be buried in Tokoroa. So yeah, I'm a bit torn about this whole thing.

In total, my family has experienced death so much within the last couple of years. I can't say exactly who lost who, but there has been so much of it. It's really unbelievable. The amount of sickness and death is pretty depressing and heartbreaking. But at the end of the day, It's all a part of life, and no matter how much we try to avoid it, It's still going to happen whether we like it or not.