Motherinlaw in hospital

I just found out tonight that my mother in law has been in hospital since Wednesday. So I was pretty ticked about that. Kinda made me wonder if I would find out after the funeral was finished. But hopefully not. I'm probably just jumping to conclusions.

So I asked my dad to come up with me to go and visit her. I didnt want to go on my own because it was pretty hard just to go to their house, let alone the exact same wards that Tangi were in, and walking the same halls that I had done everyday for 10 months. It was hard. I was close to crying when I saw a nurse who had treated Tangi and she remembered who I was. She gave me a huge hug and asked how things were going. After that we walked to Api's room. Got in their and then a big huge smiling face popped in. It was Laurie. She was one of the nurses who treated Tangi and was always so bubbly. We both enjoyed her coming in. She always made me feel like there was nothing wrong with the way that I acted, and always reminded me and Tangi that we still had to keep the intimacy going. Give each other hugs. She would even take the kids out for a little while just so we could have alone time. She was really awesome. The other nurses were awesome too but we absolutely loved Laurie.

Sometimes I wonder if I even matter when it comes to Tangi's family. I know I do when I'm with them, but I barely get any texts or phonecalls or anything. I know that they're got no credit and stuff but, it feels like it's a one way thing when it comes to wanting to know how everyone is.

I downloaded some songs from Robert Pattinson, he's got a very peculiar way of singing but I like it. I guess when I love a movie so much and I hear the music being played in the background. I love the soundtrack even better. hehehe. There I go again. Twilight. Gosh, I wonder when the hype will die down. I've already started rereading the series. there are certain parts that I really love. I love all the exciting bits that have Edward in it. hahaha. Ok, I'm so a Edward fan, not so much the Jacob fan, but definately the Edward fan. He's so much more fascinating.

But it's funny tho, Edward is the dangerous, don't know what you're getting into choice, whereas Jacob is the safer option. I've always been attracted to the Edwards. The more mature guys who still have a dangerous side to them. Tangi wasnt dangerous but he definately gave me a run for my money. He took my breath away constantly just by looking at him. He would surprise me with the things that he'd say. He was my Edward.