Ok, today is a bit tiring. Managed to at least clean up the room and stuff. Cleaned out the kids old clothes. Getting ready to just give them to charity. If they still want them, then whatever. Most of the clothes are stained anyways, so yeah. Every little bit helps. Most of the clothes are wayyy too small, but I never could be bothered going thru them. Dad fixed the car today. He is sure a perfectionist. He was trying to get everything as perfect to fit as possible. Well, at least he's more innovative than I am. I wouldnt care if it was crooked or what, so long as it stays on. hahaha. But nah, it's pretty good having someone know something about cars. Last time I tried fixing my own car, I took off the entire front of my car, and put it back together. But there was a HUGE pile of bolts and nuts leftover. Well Luckily nothing came off or anything. hahaha.

Just getting the kids to go to sleep at nights is becoming a real hassle. It happens every single night. I'll be doing something, and I've told them to go to bed. And they just keep on getting up, like as if my threats arent solid enough. It's extremely frustrating. Because they are clearly very tired, yet they just really push and push to stay awake. Pearl is the worst one. She just won't listen, no matter how stern you say it, or if you clip her ears, or anything. She still won't stay in the bed like she's told. In some ways, I feel like I'm the dork in trying to be soo much of a control freak.

I'm still reading the twilight books. I'm already rereading them. hahaha. I just love the story. The last book is definately has more of the physical relationship but what fascinates me is her transition into becoming a vampire. She's very advanced and everyone is just shocked at her. That she can control her instincts and her emotions and reactions so well. But yeah, I absolutely love the story. I even daydream about it. obsessed yeah I know. but i'm not afraid to admit either. hehahhaha.

I've been trying really hard to keep my diet on protein shakes and fruit. And nothing else. So will weigh myself in about another 2 weeks to see if it's done anything. If it has, then I'll keep it up until I've lost my weight and then I can start toning up. Hopefully trying to get to the gym as soon as possible. It's more trying to find the time and the person who is willing enough to look after my kids while I go. Thats the frustrating part. And My daughter doesnt take easily to strangers without me there. so yeah, sometimes it gets quite frustrating in that sense. but ah well.