Finished the entire series in 4 days

I went and bought the last of the series of the 'Twilight' series yesterday. Probably started reading it at about 1030am and finished at 1.43am. Man, I am sooo tired now after 4 days straight of reading and reading. I just couldnt put them down. But it was awesome how everything ended up. I was jealous that they get to live forever but it was a pretty good story. There were even some bits of the story that made me cry because I was thinking about my Tangi. And then they crack quite a lot of jokes which just lightens the mood a lot. haha. But overall, I think it was a well write story.

Now I'm looking at my floor. I vaccummed and cleaned the room before we all went to bed. And it's already in the biggest mess. The kids have thrown the cereal all over the floor and their clothes are everywhere. Talk about waking up to WW3. All while you're sleeping.

Ended up getting the part on the car that I needed. And it was a lot cheaper than the first price that was quoted to me. And the had the part right there, and it was brand new too. So I'm pretty stoked about that. Now I just need to find a cheap headlight so that I don't have to put plastic over my headlight just to disguise that it's got plastic over it. Actually I did that to my first carut ause I couldnt afford a new headlight, so I put a plastic bag over it. At night, you couldnt tell anyways. haha. all the joys of being a poor student. hahaha. well, it was more, not a poor student because I never went to uni or wintech, but just poor in general. hahahha. Just like the rest of us. So I guess one of my other goals this year is to be more financially efficient. So that I can look after my family better. I even said to Tangi one time, that it shouldnt matter how much we get, we can always save something. But we never bothered trying because there was too much to spend on. hahaha. Ah well, I reckon that I have every right to be able to buy a house. Maybe not right now, but in a couple years. So that me and the kids are a bit more stable. Or well I don't know. But I would love to keep getting jobs that keeps relocating us for a few months at a time. that would be awesome. And we can all have the experience together. It would be pretty fun to get a job like that. Where they pay you to experience life. My dream job. And all you have to do in return is report on what you've experienced. Massive job. At least I would be happy, and the kids would be alright.

I still feel like I need a break. I don't know what it is, but I still feel really tired. Like something is just hanging over my eyes. It's always there. The only time that it goes away, is like never. Everything does feel quite heavy. Maybe its all of my worries thats weighing me down. who knows. I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to be feeling right now in regards to losing Tangi. It's weird because I still feel him around, but I still feel depressed that I can't hold him, that he can't answer me the way I want him too. Sometimes, I can feel his frustration. sounds a bit weird i know, but yeah.

When I was reading those twilight books, it always got me thinking about Tangi and how he was like. He was always trying to be understanding, he loved me endlessly, we literally will be spending eternity together. And in some ways, I felt like I was bella. Like I was going through all the same stuff, obviously without the vampire side of things. Just the emotions and fighting to keep going all the time. Always having the fear that you're going to lose him. Well, I've already lost him. But just wishing that we couldve had that forever aspect of always physically being together. It's always hard to think that I still have to live without Tangi now. It breaks me every time I think about it. I never dreamed that I would be able to live without him. Just the same as I don't think I can ever see myself without my children. And having to deal with losing Tangi is somedays, just a bit hard to deal with.

I love my husband and my children so much.

Now something pretty gross. I caught nits from somewhere. I have a fair suspicion of where I got them from. I checked the kids hair, Pearl has them too. I checked Dupri's hair but not too sure. It racked me off when i scratched my head and one fell out. GROSSSSS!@!!!!!!
So I'm ticked off because I'm always so careful, but what ticks me off the most, is when the kids who have it, the parents don't tell you that they've got them as if they're embarressed about it. Man, I would be more embarrased if somebody else caught them because of me or the kids. thats more shame than actually having them. Far out. So now, we have to have a family nit removal time. Yuck.

Ah well, all part of life aye. And I don't even know why nits exsist anyways. What role do they have to play other than being extremely annoying. their only natural enemy is us. hahahaha.