Would you believe at all that if Heavenly Father said ' Who wants to come home early to help with the work here?' Do you reckon that many people wouldve said yes. Do you think that all those kids who died with cot death were the ones who said yes. What about those who died in car crashes or even cancer??
In some ways, I could believe that that's what Tangi wouldve agreed to. That he wouldve said yes, before he came here. Well, it's something thats nice to think about. It would anser a few questions, especially about why he was taken from me. Not that I owned him or anything, but dying as an old wrinkly smelly person sounded a lot better than dying earlier. Actually, I told Tangi one time, that I want to die young, cause then at least I'll still look semi good. hahaha. But, who knows. No one ever knows when their time is up.
I've been observing my motherinlaw. She doesnt have long to go, but you can't really tell how long she actually has because she has some pretty good days, and then some pretty bad days. But you can't really tell. She's been told by her specialist that they're going to start her on chemo again, but she's going to say no to them, because she can't handle it anymore. She actually thinks that the chemo killed Tangi. I honestly don't know what to think. I think a lot of things killed him, but I won't absolutely say it was the chemo. Because, we always knew that there wasnt actually any cure for Leukemia. It's just something that helps to keep it at bay, by trying to give them a chance. But it's definately a nice thought, that those who have died while they're young, that they offered to do it for something greater.

I'm actually freaking out a little bit because my brother and his family live in Victoria. And they live pretty much in a forest area. And there are forest fires over there at the moment. Last time we spoke to them, was that the fire is about 20ks away but they need to get their houses ready in case it comes closer. They constantly have to watch out for embers so that they don't start any extra fires. So, theyre cleaning out the gutters to put water in them and if the fire gets closer then they'll start spraying the house to help save it. Man, its so scary thinking that they've got to do this just to survive. They've had 40+ heat for the last few weeks so everything is absolutely flammable as. There's already been some fatalities and I'm just hoping that it doesnt happen to them. They've got masks and everything that they need. Filling up their car, if they need to run for it. that's just soooo scary. But they said that they'll ring if it gets closer to them. It sounds like the locals are helping them out a bit because this'll be their first forest fire and they know that they'll be freaking out a lot.

i love listening to the Twilight soundtrack. Mostly because it's quite relaxing at times. The kids love it too. Dupri sings along to it and Pearl just dances at the first note being played. hahaha. she has a shoulder thing going on which is cute as. Ah well better go