stuff on my mind

MICHAEL JACKSON.

Ok so i thought that i should at least give the guy some recognition on here. He is the best musician who was really versatile and energetic. I really loved listening to his music and watching his mini movies.

Okay the other thing that was on my mind was that it was my birthday a couple days ago. Actually, it was the day before Michael Jackson died. So I am now 25. And believe it or not, but my shoulders feel heavier with that one day difference from 24 to 25. It's weird. I actually feel older now. I invited a friend over and my family for dinner. It was really yum and it all went fast too. I made my usual awesomely yummy food and everyone else brought a plate and mum bought the KFC. It was really nice to have everyone there. And then we had the cake, and I didn't even get to suck a breath in before the candles were blown out. hahaha. But i didn't mind. The kids did a good job at it. And then mum gathered everyone up to go in the lounge and wanted everyone to say something nice about me. I was really flattered with the things that my brother, sisterinlaws (both of them), mum and dad and friend said. They were really awesome to hear that I actually made a difference in their lives. But when it came to my nieces and nephews, I was a little shocked when they didn't have anything to say at all. They just sat there quiet and didn't want to say anything. Now I figured that it must've been because they were either really shy or actually didn't have anything nice to say about me. I tried to not let it get to me much but i couldn't help thinking that I may actually be that horrible that my own neices and nephews don't have anything nice to say about me. I must be a really horrible aunty. So that actualy hurt my pride a bit. But mostly because I could say a heap of stuff about every single person in the room. Even the little babies. But it's not something I'm going to dwell on too much. But it's definately something that I'm not going to have again. I think I would rather not have that done with me than have my own family go blank.

On another note, now this annoyed me a lot. Back when I used to be a fresh new YSA, which was 6 years ago. I was thought of as a flirt by most of the girls in YSA. And mostly because I got along with the guys really well. I mingled with them pretty easily. I went out with one of my old guy mates to the movies the other day and he was saying how much i would flaunt it everywhere and that when we were at dances, all the guys were checking me out becuase of how i danced and the girls would be hating on me. I laughed at that because I knew that was true. But then I was chatting to another old mate and he said that the YSA still view me as that guy grabbing flirt. These kats are still in YSA of course. The ones who didn't like me much and obviously were really threatened by me. In some cases, it makes me not want to go back to YSA if I have to endure that all over again. But it's more of the fact that, I now am a mother, with 2 children, and married and yet i'm still labelled as a flirt. And I'm overweight yet I'm still classed as a threat. I would so laugh in their face if i was to get married again to another awesome as guy and they were still single. hahahahahahahaha. I would say to their face GOOD JOB!!!!!.

But I'm going to go now anyways, I've got movies to return and people to see before i go to bed. Ok.

Well thanks for reading!!!!