Eating and excercise

Now that I've decided that starving myself hasn't worked that well with losing weight, I've decided to do it the proper way and the way that I know works. Mostly because I've done it before and it was awesome.

I've gone back onto my Healthpoint plan diet which is only 100grams of carbs per day and more protein, which helps to make you fell full. And last night went for a brisk walk, which is all I can manage at the moment, and it felt really good. I actually think that excercise is also a really good way for me to strenghten my lungs for singing as well. But it felt good excercising and now that I've got an excercise buddy, it's not too bad. It's a lot more enjoyable.

Rehearsals are really fun. The tutors are really pushing for us to get to know each other. And because I'm quite shy, it's a good morale booster when these people come up to me and ask how i'm doing. I get suprised when they call out my name, becuase I don't really remember many of their names. But it's definately interesting.

Well at the moment, I still can't get in contact with the Tarai family down in Tokoroa.

The headstone has been plastered and it looks really nice. It's actually turning out a lot better than I thought it would actually so it's a real big bonus. The guy who plastered it for me just returned it this morning. It's a dark red and it feels really warm which is the feel I'm going for. Something that is warm and cosy feeling, just how he was. And me too. haha. But I hate looking at everyone elses headstones at the cemetary because most of them feel cold and empty so I wanted something that feels warm and loving. And at the moment, that's what I'm achieving with the headstone. I've been trying to look for some fonts for the lettering.
In some ways I just want this over and done with, just so I don't have to deal with it anymore. But then I don't want it to happen just yet, because it kind of feels like this is the end of trying to hold onto my husband. It feels like this is going to the final farewell and I don't want to do that.

So for breakfast I had one egg on one wholegrain toast. For morning tea I will have half an apple, for lunch I'm having dijon mustard chicken salad, afternoon tea, the other half of the apple, dinner hamburgers. And yes, I make it all myself. It's quite easy to make small portions. But yes of course being a maori, you think that you need bigger portions to satisfy your hunger but you don't. Just make sure you keep eating all day, don't wait till your hunger because by then you are already starved. just the same as, if you don't have a drink till you're thirsty becuase you're already dehydrated. So, I'm making extra effort to make sure that I stay with this plan longer than last time.

Last night I made baked basil chicken and salad for me and the kids. The chicken just had lemon juice, garlic, basil and pepper wrapped in foil then baked in oven for 20 minutes. the salad was just lettuce and cucumber. Nothing fancy. But it was really nice. and then topped it off with half a cup of rockmelon. The kids just wanted to eat the salad which suprised me more than anything. But I'm glad they enjoyed it, becuase I'm going to make them eat what I eat. hahaha