Right now

I am enjoying some chocolate almonds and sparkling grape juice, compliments of Ari. Thanks Ari. It went to a good cause. hahaha.

Has anyone seen 'Twilight' at the movies. Now if you don't know already, I love to read. But I especially love to read about Vampires. I don't know what fascinates me about them, the fact that they are mysterious, have mind powers, super strength, beautiful, etc. My sisinlaw kara was telling me about this movie and apparently it's a series of books. So I have already ordered the books so that I can get straight onto reading them. Just so you know how much I read, I can read about 800 pages within 6 hours. And that's with toilet breaks and eating. So yeah, I love to read. It just gets your imagination going and whatever is described in the book, you can see it play out in your mind. I tried to tell Tangi about the experience of a good book, but he could never get it. He wasnt a reader. But he was glad that I was happy. Sometimes, I think that reading a book is so much better than watching a movie about it, because you get to see into the persons mind, not just try and imagine what they're thinking. You get to visualise that they see, not what the screen lets you see. So yeah the author is Stephenie Meyer. I got into the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice. They were some pretty good books. If you know the movies 'Queen of the Damned' and the other one with Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise, they were firstly written by Anne Rice. Blade is also a favourite of mine. Anything that is written well and captures my imagination, I will read it. I hope at least one of my children will love reading and that they continue to do it throughout their life.
I broke my tooth the other day, it was already damaged when we were in Sydney, but I had it repaired while we were over there. And I was eating icecream the other day, and piece of it just broke off. I'm still thinking about whether I should try to get it repaired again or just pull it out. The Greening side don't have good teeth, so I have been blessed with bad teeth too. I have fillings in nearly every tooth, I have 2 teeth missing already and 2 teeth that need repairing. I think that I will have to seriuosly look into false teeth by the time I'm 30. shame!!!!! I keep trying to make sure my kids look after their teeth. So here's hoping they got Tangi's genes with their teeth. He had pretty good teeth, only thing was gaps in his teeth. They obviously got my looks hahahahha. Well I think they look a whole lot like Tangi.

I was kind of thinking how long it will take me to become Supermum. By the time both of my children get to school I need to have a career to support my children. To be able to pay for their schooling, to pay for their birthdays, for their wants and musthaves, for Dupri's mission and Pearl's wedding. All these things me and Tangi had talked about us doing. Making sure that we had the money to be able to do all of these. And to still have enough for us to buy a house and retire on. I will still be trying to make that happen as best as I can. At the moment, I'm not working, just focusing on my children and studies. Then next year will up the game a bit by adding something else into the equation. Not sure what tho yet. But we'll see how things go. It's 8 days till Christmas.

My sisinlaw Kara and Ryen and Tiarns arrived yesterday from Australia. I havent caught up much since they've come in but it feels really good to have them here. It's always good to have them around. My Brother Zappa gets in on Friday. But probably won't see him till Saturday when we wake up.

I always wonder, will I be single for the rest of my life. Maybe, I don't know. All I know at the moment, is I'm going to take my time. If it takes me 20 years, then it'll take me 20 years. One thing that worries me tho, is that if there was someone who was willing to take on a widow with two children, what happens if we have children. Who do those children go to, becuase there's no way that I'm going to be sealed to anyone else. If I do end up with someone, I'm going to make sure that I'm never going to leave Tangi. If another man makes a committment to me, it'll literally be till death do us part. And not for time and eternity. I told tangi that I want noone but him. so maybe being single for the rest of my life is going to be what I need to do. Who knows.....because I don't. I never knew that I would marry a wonderful one in a million man and then lose him to cancer. No one knew that would happen....but it did. I know he follows me wherever I go. I can feel him. Just a bit hard to talk to him when you can't hear what he's saying to you.