I've just been listening to Earth, Wind and Fire. Found the videos on Youtube from their 'Live By Request' DVD. Tangi really got into them when we were in Sydney. My brother and Kara went away to Perth on their last Christmas holiday, so me and Tangi went thru their DVDs to see if there was anything interesting to watch. Came across this one, and Tangi just couldnt stop watching it. He pretty much fell in love with them. His favourite song was 'Serpentine Fire' because he loved how it sounded and the beat and everything on the stereo. But he loved this version, not the original, because you can hear the band sound a lot clearer and it does sound a lot better than the original. More fuller I reckon. So I've put the videos on his bebo page. So anybody can go and watch them.

I've been feeling quite busy lately. With my Young Womens calling, the kids, my motherinlaw and my study. Hasnt really left much time for me to think much. But have had some awesome breaks this week as well tho. It's been good. Went to my sisterinlaws sister wedding yesterday. It was raining thruout the day, but cleared up half an hour before the wedding started. And stayed clear for the rest of the day. so it ended up being ok anyways. And the reception was good, wouldve picked a better venue, but it ended up being great for what they needed to do. The food was yum and was full as. It was a good wedding to be at. And had no kids all day. yaaahhheeee. hehehe. so yeah, I had a bit more fun not having to run after them at all. Everyone knew who I was, but didnt really find any friends. I'm still too shy.

Havent cried for about a day. That's pretty good I think. There's always something that gets me going again. At the wedding yesterday, the song she walked into was one of mine and tangi's songs. I wouldve cried, except I was wearing eye liner, and didnt want it to run. but yeah.

I miss Tangi heaps. I'm slowly getting used to the fact that he's not coming back. I just hate the idea that i'm a solo mum, which i never thought i would have to go thru ever. And that Tangi wont be back to look after me again. Well not physically anyways. It's dumb to think that even tho this wasnt part of my lifes plan, i was dealt this card. Me and Tangi wondered who this test was for. If it was for him, was it for me, was it for our friends and family. is it for our kids??? I know that I'm going to teach them as best as I can, but I can't guarantee that they wont play up without their father around. It's hard to predict the future, because we dont know whats in store.

One thing I'm definately and most grateful about, is that Leukemia is not hereditary. So, unless of some freak coincidence, my kids shouldnt have to experience what their father went thru. i'm really grateful about that part. The children are really growing up fast. Dupri is running around even faster than ever, jumping off higher things, and speaking a lot more freely. He's even running off when i take him to Daycare, he doesnt mind just taking off and playing instead of freaking out that i'm leaving. Pearl, has a lot more hair, won't be long before i can tie it up in a ponytail, and she'll look more like a girl, she already loves makeup and jewellery and is talking a whole lot more too. She even has an attitude, just like every girl has. hahaha. So the kids are doing very well. They miss their dad, everytime they see his photo, they know exactly who he is. I wish I got more videos of him, so that they could what kind of person he was. Just for some visualisation, rather than just me telling them.

Now, I don't know if this is a really random thought or not but I thought I'd just put it on anyways. It just seems that there are a lot of deaths lately. And not just adults. In the last 2 years, I know of 6 children, from people I know, who've passed away as well. So what if, part of the gathering of the saints, is to make them crossover so that they can't be tainted here. What if, the meaning of taking them off the earth is literally them dying. I don't know?? It was pretty random but its been on my mind the last week or so. Only because I know of a few really really good people who have just died out of nowhere, or gotten sick from a disease that has no trigger or reason. But obviously the gathering of saints, isnt limited to here on earth. Anyways, thats a thought.