Internet and phone's back on

I've been disconnected for about 1 1/2 months due to non payment. Yes it was my fault but that is because i had the choice to either pay my phone bill or fix my car. and i chose to fix my car instead. Hence why it's taken me a whole month and a half to get my phone back on. but i'm so stoked now that i can just jump on the internet in the safety of my own room.

My parents internet is way too slow for me to sit there without trying to break the screen for making me wait so long, or having to drive to my brothers place to park in their driveway and use my laptop in the car while i'm trying to keep the kids quiet. It's definately been a learning curve.

I took my mum to a monument place and got a quote for headstone that i wanted. My dad is still trying to make the headstone but it's not going to come out in the colour that i want it to be. So I wanted to get prices to see how much fundraising i'm going to have to do to get this done the way that i want it done. But the around about price that the headstone is going to come to be is about $4000. Probably a little bit less than that. But thats a hell of a lot of fundraising to do just to get it done. I just spoke to my sister in law and she said that her dad wanted to know if his name and his wife's name will be on the headstone as well. I said to her that i wasn't planning on it because my name won't even be on it. Mostly because i don't see the point in putting my name on it since i'm going to be buried with him and it'l be on it on a later date. so yeah. But the only people who have the utmost privilige of having their names on the stone is going to be our children, Dupri and Pearl. but it's going to be interesting if there are any demands on what is to be on it. But i've asked my sister in law to organise some fundraising stuff for down there. because i need their help with coming up with four grand. And since its their son, i'm letting them be able to be a part of it. So thats what i wanted to do.

I'm still trying to get my head around a few things, especially finances. I've got a lot to learn about saving and book keeping. Even though i can do it no problems, i have a problem with sticking to budgets. especially if there's any spare money lying around. but thats something that i'm definately working on anyway.

I feel like i've got more of a positive outlook on life. It's definately a lot easier to deal with. But i still miss my babe. But one thing that i did for fun was that i auditioned for THE SOUND OF MUSIC. Crazy huh. I've never done anything like that before, i havent from the producers yet if i got any part. i tried out to be a nun. But then again, the sound of music isn't my genre that i like. but at least i went and did it. so i'm happy that i stepped out of my comfort zone and tried it.

well thats me for now, i need to go and pick up my son and then start working on my calling as YW secretary and get all our typing and office work stuff sorted. So either way, i'm busy which is good. I know that I made the decision to stay in church and stuff, but that doesn't mean that i don't have urges to drop it all and go buckwild. So i'm glad that i've got my calling to keep me focused on what i want. I find that i get distracted very easily, regardless of if i'm doing the right thing or not. there are things that still appeal to me. my dad said that it goes away after a while, the appeal and the urge to do those things that we shouldn't but it does go away after a while, its whether or not we want to stick it out depends on our success of overcoming those temptations.

so yeah, have a nice day