Now that's something to think about. hahaha
Well, I was told this by my mum. It just sounded funny coming from her. But hey, it is good advice.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Jumping on the band wagon
hahaha
So I thought, man all these kats have got massive backgrounds and I couldn't find them. So I thought, what the hell I'll just go get one where everyone else is. So I decided on a grungey butterfly theme. Pretty kool colours and textures I think. lol.
The time is 10am and my children are already asking for chocolate icecream. Man, what little junk eaters. hahaha. It's only cause they saw that there was some icecream in the freezer and I bought them some icecream cones so they think they can have it whenever they want. Just as kids do.
Don't you hate it when you've just cleaned up and then they come along and just make a huge mess and make it look like you didn't clean up in the first place. Geez. I can't wait till they're a little older so the place can stay clean for at least a whole day or two.
hmmm
So I thought, man all these kats have got massive backgrounds and I couldn't find them. So I thought, what the hell I'll just go get one where everyone else is. So I decided on a grungey butterfly theme. Pretty kool colours and textures I think. lol.
The time is 10am and my children are already asking for chocolate icecream. Man, what little junk eaters. hahaha. It's only cause they saw that there was some icecream in the freezer and I bought them some icecream cones so they think they can have it whenever they want. Just as kids do.
Don't you hate it when you've just cleaned up and then they come along and just make a huge mess and make it look like you didn't clean up in the first place. Geez. I can't wait till they're a little older so the place can stay clean for at least a whole day or two.
hmmm
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Saying goodnight to my kiddies
Saying goodnight to my kiddies consists of a hug, then a kiss, then wiggling our noses together, then giving each other butterfly kisses then another kiss and another hug then a string of 'goodnight mummy, goodnight my darling, i love you mummy, i love you my darling.' and then again with Pearl but instead of calling her darling, i call her my beautiful. And she repeats it as peu-fu-fuill. She's so gorgeous and so is dupri.
Now Im into the hard out rehearsals now where we sit and watch the entire show go through now. But because there are 2 casts of children we adults have to do it twice as much. Which I don't mind so much because it is quite fun to be there with everyone and just mingle. But i just have to make sure that i take my music with me so that i've got something to occupy me whilst rehearsals are on.
Today in Relief Society, I only went to about 15 minutes of it but one thing that stuck in my mind is that there are some parents who think that their child can do no wrong. that they would never go wayward, that there is no way they would ever do those things at all. And that as parents we need to just be there for them, because an angry reaction to what's being done may be the make or break of what that child ends up doing. Now I'm 25 and I feel the pressures of trying to live my life accordingly and that if I choose to do something that I want to do, I will be looked at as a failure to my parents and family. It's not that I don't want to go to church or anything like that, i really enjoy it, but I also enjoy everything else too. So I'm coming up with a delima. What is it that I have to do to be able to enjoy both worlds. Is it possible to do? How long before many people find out and I'm back to where I was before, a gossip subject. How long before everything in my life crumbles for good.
I have a friend, we've had our really rough times and have found each other to be friends once again. She's going through a hell of a time with her family, she also was seriously sick and just having a lot of personal issues, and she's choosing to do things on her own for awhile. But she's got friends who are really worried for her and care about what happens to her. they even come over and see how she is. I had to tell her that she is soo lucky that she has friends who do actually care about her, and that I never had that. The only person who really made an effort to make sure I was ok was Tangi. And it was an ongoing effort from him too. So much so that I reciprocated that effort and we became really good friends.
But it's definately made me think that maybe I wasn't really liked at all. Or maybe I'm an obsessive person. Well actually no i don't think i am but just with the past experiences of my friend history, I've seemed to have quite shallow friends. I'm already used to thinking and feeling that I'll be alone for the rest of my life. Tangi was bestest friend and husband to me.
so far since Tangi has died, I have only met 2 single people who don't mind if my kids come and hang out with us. No one else has done that at all. other than my family. I love hanging out with my family. they're pretty kool. But i guess, there's always something that's different about friends and family.
One thing I can't wait to do, is go on at least one dinner with my sisterinlaw. I've been hanging out for it for ages. hahahaha. and if you're reading this yeah u know who u are. But this time, it's going to a cheap dinner and stuff. hahahaha. No $80 later crap again.
I've been to the Dr anyway, and he said that I should go back on anti depression pills just to see if it'll work. I haven't taken any yet but I should.
Who knows what I'm supposed to be doing. It feels a little weird at the moment.
Anyways, I have to take my daughter back into the Dr's to get the last injection for her immunisations. They didn't have one particular vaccine and were waiting for it to be sent in. So she'll be annoyed at me for putting her through that again.
Now Im into the hard out rehearsals now where we sit and watch the entire show go through now. But because there are 2 casts of children we adults have to do it twice as much. Which I don't mind so much because it is quite fun to be there with everyone and just mingle. But i just have to make sure that i take my music with me so that i've got something to occupy me whilst rehearsals are on.
Today in Relief Society, I only went to about 15 minutes of it but one thing that stuck in my mind is that there are some parents who think that their child can do no wrong. that they would never go wayward, that there is no way they would ever do those things at all. And that as parents we need to just be there for them, because an angry reaction to what's being done may be the make or break of what that child ends up doing. Now I'm 25 and I feel the pressures of trying to live my life accordingly and that if I choose to do something that I want to do, I will be looked at as a failure to my parents and family. It's not that I don't want to go to church or anything like that, i really enjoy it, but I also enjoy everything else too. So I'm coming up with a delima. What is it that I have to do to be able to enjoy both worlds. Is it possible to do? How long before many people find out and I'm back to where I was before, a gossip subject. How long before everything in my life crumbles for good.
I have a friend, we've had our really rough times and have found each other to be friends once again. She's going through a hell of a time with her family, she also was seriously sick and just having a lot of personal issues, and she's choosing to do things on her own for awhile. But she's got friends who are really worried for her and care about what happens to her. they even come over and see how she is. I had to tell her that she is soo lucky that she has friends who do actually care about her, and that I never had that. The only person who really made an effort to make sure I was ok was Tangi. And it was an ongoing effort from him too. So much so that I reciprocated that effort and we became really good friends.
But it's definately made me think that maybe I wasn't really liked at all. Or maybe I'm an obsessive person. Well actually no i don't think i am but just with the past experiences of my friend history, I've seemed to have quite shallow friends. I'm already used to thinking and feeling that I'll be alone for the rest of my life. Tangi was bestest friend and husband to me.
so far since Tangi has died, I have only met 2 single people who don't mind if my kids come and hang out with us. No one else has done that at all. other than my family. I love hanging out with my family. they're pretty kool. But i guess, there's always something that's different about friends and family.
One thing I can't wait to do, is go on at least one dinner with my sisterinlaw. I've been hanging out for it for ages. hahahaha. and if you're reading this yeah u know who u are. But this time, it's going to a cheap dinner and stuff. hahahaha. No $80 later crap again.
I've been to the Dr anyway, and he said that I should go back on anti depression pills just to see if it'll work. I haven't taken any yet but I should.
Who knows what I'm supposed to be doing. It feels a little weird at the moment.
Anyways, I have to take my daughter back into the Dr's to get the last injection for her immunisations. They didn't have one particular vaccine and were waiting for it to be sent in. So she'll be annoyed at me for putting her through that again.
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