Just some pics

Well since I haven't put any pics up lately here are some. The kids got into my $40 liquid eye liner. My son watched me put my makeup on last night and so he thought he would replicate what i was doing Thiis is what my hair looks like now. Its the new cut but it looks a bit wierd. i'm going to have to straighten it so that i can get a really good look at what it looks like.

The kids being crack up

My hair from the front position. Yes I look like a zombie or some ugly beast. hahaha.

The kids giving me their evil eyes. hahhaha.

Waiting and waiting

I cut my hair today, it was just a trim really but it's just past my shoulders now and I did it in layers. So it's pretty snazzy looking for my own cutting. And yes, it was all on my own. One side is slightly longer than the other side but thats sweet as. It'll make it easier to tidy up and do up and I might be bothered to even brush it a bit more often. Man, i swear, if i don't brush my hair at least twice a day, a few dreadlocks evolve. it's bionic my hair.

Now about that waiting part. Ok, i'm waiting for the YSA dance to start and also for my kids to go to sleep. Just so tat i can go. I'm tired and about to fall asleep but i actually want to go and socialise for a couple hours. But i'm waiting for the kids to go to sleep so that i can get ready and then jump in the car and take off. My mum is inside so she'll be able to keep an ear out for them if they wake up. But otherwise, the kids are pretty good sleepers.

Okay, now I have watched Michael Jackson's funeral several times as well as search out his 30th anniversary concert, all of his mini movies, moonwalker, thriller, ghost etc and i even watched his interviews with oprah and this other guy. And after all of that, I finally understood a bit better. I still don't think that it was appropriate to have other people's kids sleep in your room with you when you're an adult, but just listening to how he explained it. Was that he treated it like a normal sleepover with mates. Even though he was a grown adult, but he had become like a child. He even said in an interview that he didn't think he was god. he just tried to be godlike. to become like a little child, be innocent minded like a child. And that's what he adapted into his everyday life. So, I think I understand him just a little bit better, but I would've loved to have gotten to know him personally, he actually looked like a really fun guy to be around.

And yes I balled my eyes out when his daughter got up and said her piece. I think it would've made people realise that he was a father too.

So I'm still waiting. I can see that one child is nearly asleep and the other one is just lying htere quietly. I don't think he's near asleep yet but it doesn't matter. He's pretty good with putting himself to sleep. It's been really cold the last few nights. I've even let Pearl snuggle up to me just so that she can stay warm at night. Dupri actually have all our blankets on his bed just to keep his little body warm, and we have a 4 fin oil heater to heat this room. But it's still chily. Might have to pull out the other oil heater as well. I have them going all day and night and it's still really cold. I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to wear tonight to the dance becuase i don't want to go and be freezing cold and not be able to move because i'm cold as. Anyways, I better get off and figure out my wardrobe, not that i care too much on how i look but it's more about the comfort and still being able to feel my toes at the end of the night. and hopefully my toes haven't fallen off from frostbite in the gloomy hamilton weather.

Being Busy - Theory Time

Now does being busy necessarily mean being happy. I know that for me being busy definately helps me to be happy with my situation than if I wasn't busy. Especially if I wasn't busy enough to take my mind off of annoying things. And does being happy mean that you are happy with the life you're living or that you love life in general.
I know of a lot of people who love life but aren't happy. Also, I know a few people who are really busy but aren't happy. So to be happy, what does one self have to do to achieve it.
Ok, here's an example.
I got married to the most amazing guy in the world and had an amazingly awesome marriage. But I wasn't entirely happy, not because of my husband but because I didn't feel like I had achieved much up to that point. I didn't have a career, I wasn't a homemaker, I wasn't crafty or anything, wasn't in any clubs and didn't have any achievements or goals. I felt like I was stuck in the same place.
At the moment, I am busy with my calling at church, going out a little bit more to socialise, writing a book, in a musical and I feel really happy. I feel like I'm actually achieving something great.
So if these two had been combined and happened at the exact same time, I think I would've been so euphoric. But it didn't happen at the same time did it.
I just got off the phone to a friend, who is in YSA who says that she's not happy with her life. She needs a change and being a YSA in Hamilton is too repetitive and boring. And that a couple other YSA are feeling the same too. So I wondered to myself. If I hadn't gotten married and had children, would I have been stuck in that vicious YSA cycle where you don't progress. where your life just goes around and around in circles and living from one paycheck to the other. With no goals but to socialise with each other. I think I would be really unhappy at the monotomus lifestyle.
I guess at the same time, I don't work so I've been treating my calling as a part time job. Now, because I'm the secretary in YW, I have made up templates for every single thing that is needed in YW. On Sunday, someone asked who the secretary for YW was, I turned to her and said that it was me. She just replied, Oh, I didn't realise. I thought you were a counsellor or the President. I just laughed and said 'Well, that's only cause I act like it. I boss everyone around.'. She laughed and so did one of the counsellor who was standing with me. But it hit me, that I had no idea how important my role in this calling was. And that the reason why I've made such a huge effort to do my best with it, it shows in my attitude toward the other leaders and the girls. I really enjoy my calling. I know what my calling is, and i'm doing exactly that. I don't overstep on anything, I take the minutes for all the meetings, i do the agenda for that meeting, i give out the assignments to everyone, do up the calendars, update all the records, take the rolls etc. But just typing everything up takes quite a bit of time. Even with my speed typing off 75wpm it still takes me at least a day to type everything up and emailed out to everyone, as well as printing them out to have a hardcopy of them. And then on top of that, I'm expected to help out with the activities as well if i'm needed. And with most of the combined activities, i am required to be there, either for transport or even just for support.
So my theory, at the end of all of this, is that, if you find something that you really enjoy, stick to it and you will be happy. espeically when you feel that life is going good for you. But to just enjoy it.